(...) but it's about honor playing symphony's value! (...) So, I must to leave Paris. I rather to be alone close to the ocean than alone in Paris. Paris weakens me. Ocean strengthen me. (...) I could hate you, but I don't. I must not and even if for one second i thought that, i would kill that feeling. (...) why? because (...) I'm just tired of wars. There's a lot of war on human nature, and I refuse to lose hope and faith on them. (...) That I can't lose, as also my honor.